Well it’s been sometime before I posted last. Good note. Headaches stopped. Bad note. No idea why I was getting them. So get this:
Doctor says it’s stress and allergies
ER doctor said it was from stopping coffee
Chiropractor says it’s called Upper Cross and from sitting at work all day
Neurologist said it’s Anxiety
Psychiatrist says it’s my Bipolar
Sooooooo in other words. No one knows. 🤦🏻♀️
Well I stopped getting them. But I’m back on lithium for my bipolar. I realized that no matter how aware I am of my bipolar and no matter how understanding I am I just cannot control it. So I’m back on lithium and we shall see. It’s helping quiet my mind a little bit. Leaving me feel less and less like a schizophrenic. I guess one day at a time.
Ok so this morning and throughout th day I have been taking CBD oil through the vape. I feel amazing. I feel stress free, happy, no headaches, calm and just amazing. Praise the Lord. I give thanks to the Lord first because I got down on my knees last night and cried after my last blog and begged for Mercy for pain releif. 🙏🏼
I don’t know if it’s the placebo effect or if it’s the CBD itself but I feel awesome today. Everyone else has even commented on how I am acting and I seem more relaxed. I give it to God first though. Because He is the one that made this happen. He created the plant. He created the people that cultivated the plant and those that found Out what CBDs do.
Thank you Father. Please allow this to continue.
Ps. If you’re still skeptical of what marijuana and hemp can do please take the blinders off and for one second look past what it does to you. Yes people get high from it but it has so many medicinal properties and reasons behind it also!!!
Give it to God, Let it go.
Sometimes the ones you love are the ones that have a tendency to let you down. It hurts right? It’s rough. You expect those that are close to never do that to you. You expect more. We feel betrayed and hurt and left out and unloved.
I have two options at this point. I can hold a grudge, remain mad 😡 and hold ill feelings inside. It makes you feel angry holding onto it. It makes you feel upset and for me it produces anxiety. Or I can chose the other option; I can give it to God and let it go. I have taken care of it myself. I have asked Him to help me let it go and allow the just to he treated fairly. Sometimes it’s hard to let it go. Trust me. Letting it go is much healthier both mentally and physically and emotionally than not letting it go.
So if you hold ill feelings towards another for being wronged, let it go.
🎼 🎤🎵🎶 ❄️❄️ Let it Go, Let it go. Can’t hold it back anymore. ❄️❄️🎶🎵